Am I still in love with you?

AHHH! Hi there imaginary readers! Somethings telling me to blog about this e. I was not planing this, but it suddenly popped out of my mind. And I am posted with a question? 

Am I still in love with him? I can't seem to understand myself. 

I just don't understand myself anymore. I FEEL like I am over him. But I still care. I really do. 

Proofs that I care:

It was late at night, he told me may promblema daw sya, agad agad akong nag vib sakanya, even though my training ako early morning the following day, I still stayed up with him till 1am yata. 

Nung nagka-dengue siya, eto ako natataranta. I even stayed with him sa hospital nung walang nagbantay sakanya. 

I still open his e-class and his account sa portal to check his grades. @@ And I still make sermon pag may failing mark siya. 

Actually, madami pa e. Pero yan nalang muna. The point is I still care about him. I know caring and loving are two different things. Kaya may dagdag pa akong problema, I am confused. I dont know how to react e! 

Everybody knows we are friends. After the break up. Everybody was amazed because we still became friends, after 3 months I guess, we became friends again. And after a year, we became closer. :) Look at us now, we share our problems with each other, and talk about private matter with each other. He is  like a super close friend to me na. Eto yung confusing part, when he talks about other girls with me. Yung "Chix" thing. Everybody knows that naman. Mga guys mahilig sa chix. Pero siya kase, ngayon nalang ulit poporma sa babae. After the break up. (AY! Meron na pala syang ibang pinormahan, but it didn't work out e. Mga, 6 months after the break up yon.) Tapos ngayon meron nanaman. After a year. Pero 1 year na siyang walang girlfriend. Sooooo.. Ayon, parang ngayon, naghahanap na sya. And meron na siyang prospect. In fact kilala ko. Just an acquaintance, not naman close, pero kilala ko. Ewan ko! Di ko alam anong dapat kong maramdaman e! Parang di naman ako nasasaktan gaya ng dati. I really don't know. Parang wala lang naman saakin. Okay lang naman. Pero, parang awkward kase e. May something parin... 

AH BASTA! yun na yon. Di ko lang alam papano i-explain yung feeling na yon. Anjan parin kase kame para sa isa't isa e. Pero I can really see that he has completely moved on. Ako lang naman tong tatanga tanga dito e. @@ Ang gulo talaga. Pero thankful talaga ako for him kase, siya yung tumutulong saakin ngayon. Tapos, parang siya ung anjan palagi para saakin. Lalo na ngayong I am facing problems. I am really thankful to God for giving me a friend like him. Bihira ka kase makakita ng naghiwalay na tapos super magkaibigan pa after all. Lalo na sa situation namin. Kaya parang hirap ako. EWAN! Basta yun na!

Ayos na ako, nailabas ko na ang aking mga saloobin. 

Byeeee! :3 

#MissMarjj