I know everything will be fine

ok. so tagalog tayo ngyon para maexpress ko tlga ang akin saloobin.

so this past fews days or shall I say, itong mga nakaraang araw. ndi kame nagttext or naguusap ni wilbur. dahil nmn sa nagaway kame. For some reasons, which im not going to broadcast here. its not included. nakakahya. so ayon. So, okay. we are not talking/communicating at the moment, maybe for 3 days already, except for the short PMs on facebook. its really very hard for me pag ganto na. Kase ako ang lugi e. ako ung nabobother, at sya? wala lang. Syempre lalake sya e. anyways. here's my drama...

I know I have my flaws, mistakes, bad stuffs, not that pretty or whatsoever. And im insecure. okay, I admit that. ung feeling na, any moment, any day, pwedeng mawala syo ang taong mahal mo. ung pede neang sabhin na, ndi na kita mahal. oh meh mahal na akong iba. masakit un db. at takot akong mangyare yon. im scared na baka one day mawala nalang sya bigla. and im starting to feel na malapit na yon. ndi nmn tumatagal ang mga away nmn ng gnto ah. pero ngyon, wala tlga, di sya nag effort na kausapin man lang ako. but I understand that, baka ndi pa sya ready, ohhh. pagod sya, oh ewn ko kung anong reason nea.

Sana, maaus na ang lahat, Sana pagkatapos neto maging mas matatag kame. at sana mas mahalin pa namen ang isa't isa. :( SANA .

That feeling when..

When you know somethings wrong .. but there's really none.

ganito, 3 consecutive days na kame di maxdo nagccommunicate. kase busy nga sa school. and sooooooooooo, I thought na wala na kameng time sa isa't isa. then I got scared. HAHA! akala ko anu na. and then its weird kase when we see each other. parang wala nmn mali. everything's okay. the way we talk and everything. its totally A-OKAY. but when we're away from each other. para na akong praning.. im soo OA na tlg! WHAT MAN!

So yeah, last night we talk about a lot of stuffs. I told him what I felt and he just listened. and I was shoked because he usually sleeps early. but last night, it was different. we probably talked for how many hours and usually he gets sleepy first. but last night I was the one who surrendered first. :))) ahaha.. and the thought was we were just making up for those days we hadn't got the chance to talk. :) and yea. i love him so so much. :DD

july152011. I gave him ferrero chocolates with some words inside the box. :) I didn't give him letters because that's what i gave him last month.. sooooo.. yeah. ferrero collections. and guess what? He gave me .... He gave me something he never gave to me before. its A LETTER! ahahahahahaha.. yey! that's something I never thought I'd receive from him. really cool. and what's funny is. I KNOW he's not use to writing letters and stuffs like that, but he made it creatively! ahaha.. he also forgot to put the date .. his penmanship was so sweet. ahhaah! at the lower part of the letter there was a paper-made flower with his perfume which I really LOVE sprayed on it. :)) really one of the priceless gifts I ever had receive.

pretty sure that we love each other. :D of that im sure. <3 hihihihihih

Fights

hallo blog.

lately we've been having fights.

almost everyday.. and it makes me feel sad. :(

what am i going to do now?

I hope I can change for the better. and he as well.

hmmm.. what bothers me is this, our last fight June 27, almost 10pm

I was really pissed. kinukulit/iniinis/ginagalit nea ako.. @@ at pagod na ako. so what I did is,

I said one more time and I'll put the phone down.

and without hesitation He did it again. @@

sooo, I shut the phone, then slept.

the following day, He didn't show up, he didn't even look for me.

so hinanap ko sya after my class. and then, I saw him playing basket ball. and then I left.

tapos, in the afternoon, after my last class, I went to his room to look for him, but sadly the class was over and he wasn't there anymore. And then, I thought maybe his playing basket ball again, so i went to the MPCC to check if he was there. and the he is! when he saw me he didnt say anything, he just looked at me. OKAY. so I sat there for a while then I decided to leave.

I went back to my friends. after awhile I decided to go to my dentist not far from school. so I head back to the MPCC to say goodbye to him. then when I walked out of the MPCC he was calling me.. he said " hatid na kita. " okayyyyy. so we walked to the clinic. and the walk was like 10 years. we just walked, no chitchats.. just walk.

then I felt that this is really unusual, we never have fights this long.. so while we're walking I gave him a letter I wrote few night before. then he left me in the clinic.

At night, I phoned him. and his sister answered. she said he is still taking a bath. and then he texted me. His messages was really cold. @@ I hated it. I felt really sad. syempre ikaw ba nmn.. nakikipag ayos tapos sya walang gana. @@ I sent him a message on facebook. Then we had a chat. and then I kinda fix things up and then at the and of the night we were laughing .. I sadi if he could come here today. He said he'll try, and now im still waiting for him to come..

uh.. I'm going to do my best to really understand him as much as possible.

Im not going to be immature.

Im going to make this last, We're going to make this thing last.

Piano

His piano recital. *yey!*

April 19, 2o11

and saya. may kumanta and meron ding nagpiano. isa na sya don.

well, ganito...

ganito ang porma nea habang nagppiano

okay. so not clear, di sya close up.:))

His piano piece was My Brother. A nice piece nmn. :)

'yon and after that we went to jollibee and ate again. :))