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Hi
there! So here’s the sitch. Kahapon,
09-23-12 was his mom’s birthday. It was a rainy Sunday afternoon. When my phone
rang, it was “Tita sha”. When I answer the call, I heard a different voice. It
was him. He was asking if I have eaten my lunch already. And I ask him back,
why are you asking? Then he said its tita’s birthday and tita wants me to go
with them on a lunch. Then I said that I would go with them. Then they fetch me
and we went to a restaurant in Mercerdes I guess.
When
we arrived at the venue, they were ordering the food, and the kids were playing
and I was there sitting with Wilbur. Then, Wilbur was borrowing something from
his dad I guess it was a wireless charger for an iPhone. *NYALA!* Then we were
talking and bla blabla… When he was about to return that charger thingy to his
dad, I accidentally saw something in his phone, and his dad knew that I saw it.
Ayooooon! Awkward moment, and then Wilbur smiled at me. And I was faking a
smile also. HAHAHA! He was acting strange and looking at me as if he wants to
read what’s on my mind. And the he started to explain about that picture that I
saw. Then I said that I wasn’t asking for your explanation. “Break na nga tayo
diba? Di na tayo. Kaya wag ka nang magexplain. DON’T BUY THE GUILT!” I was
wondering why he was trying to explain himself. I really was asking myself why.
And then his dad was laughing and I was also laughing. And suddenly, I realized
that I am not hurt anymore. I didn’t feel even a slight sting. I don’t know,
but maybe because I am used to this kind of pain already that I don’t feel it
anymore, or maybe because, I finally accepted that fact about it already, the
fact that, it’s really over between us. I really don’t know.
Then
we finished eating, and we got out of the resto, when we were on our way to
their house, he told me that he was trying to explain because he doesn’t want
to see me get hurt again because of him. He was trying to avoid me getting
hurt. And then I told him, that it’s okay. And at the back of my mind, I was telling
him that hurting me is just his natural habit. But no, I didn’t tell him that
because I don’t really feel the pain anymore. And that I was trying to be
strong, and I was trying to show him that I am not hurt anymore. And I just
want to be happy with him that day. I don’t really understand myself anymore at
this point. It is just so cloudy. And I don’t know. I am really confused about
these feelings that I have right now. But the story didn’t end there. His mom
invited me to have dinner with them together with his tita’s and tito’s
families. And since I wasn’t really busy that day, and I can’t afford to say no
to his mom. I said yes. Besides, I still want to be with them naman e. J So yon, we had dinner
at Palmeras. And everything was calm and relaxed that time. We were laughing
and having talks. Sayang nga lang I didn’t get the chance to have a picture
with them. </3 Ahhhh. But yon, when we were happy naman. And then on our way
home we were laughing still and enjoying the moment. As we arrived home, Wilbur
was walking with me to the gate, then to our door. Tapos, I said na it’s better
if he pass in the small front door, para di na sya maglakad ng malayo. Then when
I was opening the door, I stopped for a while. I look at him in the eye. And we
were so so so close. Then I opened the door. He left.
After
all that had happened that day, I can say that yes. I am happy that it all
happened. But then, I didn’t feel any thrill. Or maybe I was denying it. AHH!
Ewan. In time. All this will heal.
